I just wanna jump, don't think about tomorrow

I SAW THE SUN TODAYYY. SUMMER IS COMING????! :) yes it still was -10F BUT WHO CARES tittidiiii. Two kids didn't have their skis with them so we went for a walk instead, hahah we had so much fun! Our walk consisted of snow angels, mountain conquering, jumping competition, unbroken snow running exercise, crawling, sliding on the icy road etc.:DD
It touched me that I got to teach the kids some compound words <3 for those who don't know: finnish language has enormous amount of compound words and most of the people do not know them which pisses me off A LOT. ;D give credit to your native language!! (ehehe I'm totally aware of the contradiction here)

ps I'M EXTREMELY EXCITED ABOUT ONE THING RIGHT NOWWWWWW! I CAN'T WAIT! :))))

pps I guess I'm easily entertained : jonathanfromspotifyruinedyourplaylist.com :'''D

"la vida es un chiste y el futuro no existe"

que maldita mala suerte la mía

I'm starting to think that I am a litlle mental. freaky. weirdo. haha :D But seriously, I am an either-or person, extreme, no happy mediums for me. Some days everything is just aweeesooooomeeee! and then the next day all the same things seem dull. And that makes me even more confused that I'd normally be. :D
Anyways this past week went by really fast.
-I sewed over my finger with a sewing machine (a new one finally!). It hurt and in fact still hurts quite a bit.
-It has been extremely cold again asdasd, so we couldn't ice skate or ski at school cause the risks for a frost bite are too high :(.
-I've had the most awkward swedish classes- 2 times in a row. First time there were only two people :DDDDD and we had to create a conversation about rasism (IN SWEDISH!! let me laughhhh!) and the teacher was lke 2 meters away listening every word...and then the next time I was there alone! Then at spanish class we were discussing (en espanol) about finnish people, I was really struggling with my words, since I had just come from a swedish class and for once I had some swedish words in my head, and of course finnish, but also english, cause most of the time I need to think in english in spanish class - so I was really muddle-headed there. It was pretty hilarious tho. Things that are not so hilarious: 2 espanol compositions due on Monday and I haven't even started them yet, toooo cold still, ANNA PUU and LeKi track camp at the same weekend!!!!!!!!!!!! yes, all of those exclamation points are needed. That. Sucks. Majorly. :s




ps I hate the way I'm feeling now

pps "yo it's Norm" He is my new hero and a totem animal<3

I'm on my way....

...but where??
Lots of people go and explore this world with a goal of finding themselves during that time. When they leave they create a distance to the past and I agree that the distance helps you clarify your thougts and helps you see things in a different light and appreaciate some things and wanting somethings to change...But then when they come back is everything then good and they have made a peace with themselves? Well I would say no. (at least in my case) I'm more confused that I've ever been, and I think that without ever leaving my life would be so much easier! I have no idea where I wanna be, what to do, and why? I know I'm still young and everything feels really dramatic and drastic and final, but still. MY MIND IS IN A WHIRL. Way too much things for a little person (not literally) to handle :( When I'm away I miss this. When I'm here I miss being away. I guess I just have to live one day at a time! (and that's what I've done, I never plan my life ahead more than like few days 8D). Point of this pathetic personal openig up? I MISS AMERICA. That feeling hits me every now and then, today it was strong.
"Life can only be understood backwards, but must be lived forwards"










"Om du följer spår du aldrig sett för, kan du lära med ditt hjärta här och nu"

sometimes you close your eyes and see the place where you used to live

No posting for a while. Harsh back to the reality and then on top of that a broken network cable 8) (honey-bunny-rabbit<3)
But holidaying was NICE :) I did everything I had planned plus more. Highlights: sleeping, HOT TUBING, friends, family, eating, xc skiing (hahah this was a suicide), skating, downhill skiing, sledding (aahhhh winterr), redecorating......Not so nice parts: +200 pounds, VR (= finnish nation railway ARGHHHHHH why can't they build hardy machines? just wondering), dad's computer, cold (-30C = abt -22F).
New years was the best in ages; my girls, hot tubing (the weirdest thing ever, everything above your neck is freezing and below it is boiling :D), chatting, trivial pursuit, overwhelming notice that we are twenteen (20) years old and have lived in four (4!) different decades, welcoming the new year with and adventure to tikkis, fireworks, ABBA-medley, firefighters!!<3 The very next day we're off to redecorating Tiina's new apartment, I felt so codger at that time (bob the builder tittidii)!



Then after a long, adventorous and back breaking trip back to Miksula I found myself having a battle with a sewing machine (which is as old as heaven). As awesome as I am at sewing that hell of a machine routed me! This past week I've watched way too much bad tv-series and done way too little school work. Too much dreaming about future and then waking up in the middle of nights to worry about the present problems/challenges (which would feel tiny during a day...somehow they grow to be gigantic :o).
wow this post is very random and has no point :D well anyways I hope this year holds lots of awesome, surprising and exciting things for me! (There are some things I'm already looking forward to!)

ps I really appreciate the boxing match they are having upstairs. I guess I didn't wanna go to bed yet?