what ever makes you happy

I feel like I'm complete now. Like how awesome is this? I was just reading the blog "1000 awesoe things" and the numbers 623 "The sound of snow crunching under your boots" and 620 "Singing the songs you just heard on the way home from the concert" TOUCHE! They aptly decribe yesterday. AKNÖIUHEGFVSNBCÖEKFÖWEKLÅ I'm going bananas, yesterday was perfect! Antti Tuisku @ Mikkeli :)) mmmmmmm, he is so incrediply hotttttt and I felt I was that 15-year-old girl I used to be going to A.T's concert and screaming my lungs out ;) haha it was fun! One of the songs also made me cry, I was trying to hold back the whole song and then this part came and I just couldn't any longer "näen huolen vanhempien kasvoilta, ne toivoo että seisoisin omilla jaloilla, ja vakuutan mä kyllä pärjään, tää on mun elämää, päivääkään en vaihtais toiseen". And then while walking back home (it's a shitty walk, only 30 minutes but you get your whole body to shiver uncontrollably with cold and you just hope the whole time you coul've been born to hawai) I was singning that song and thinking about my life, I came to a conclusion that even tho lots of things have gone "wrong" this year yet at the end they have payed off and turned out to be good decisions (at least now I feel like it). And while singing and thinking my boots were making that incredibly relaxing sound of crunching snow, AND one of the most beautiful sights I've ever seen were in front of my eyes! Finland is exquisite on winter nights: -13F, clear air, silence, black sky with bright stars (and if you're lucky with northern lights), white-crystal-shiny world, the smell of the frost, and the sound of the snow and ice ♥ I'm a happy camper (:



Just one thing, I still don't have that magical back-to-the-childhood christmas feeling. Not even tho it's white and beautiful out, I've already bought all the gifts, I don't have school until January 11th (except for couple of essays etc) and just few days of work, and we are just singing carols etc at work and let me tell you before that used to bring me the feeling of the up coming Christmas :( AM I GROWING UP OR WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME, this ain't no fun?! Hopefully I'll find it when I travel back home and see my family especially my sis (!!! (: ) and grandma.

p.s I was just gonna go ice skating but had second thoughts while I stepped out. NO CAN DO. good excuse to say in all day and do absolutely nothing, heheee : D (I feel so lazyyyyyy)